Being overdrawn due to binge eating disorder
Wow. I just read a past journal entry about something totally embarrassing from when I was binge eating. It’s even embarrassing to tell you about right now.
Picture it: 1999. I’m 19 years old. I’m overdrawn severely in my bank account. I mean, it’s bad. And it’s all because of binge eating disorder. Seriously.
You gotta love all the $35 charges for being overdrawn, right? Well, how about being overdrawn and having the $35 fee added to your negative balance, um, 5 times. 5 times… that’s $175 that I didn’t have for bills, gas, binge eating.
$175 overdrawn and what was my first thought? How was I going to buy junk food to binge on?
Looking back on it now I wonder why I wasn’t considered for the more important things, like how was I going to get to school if I had no gas and no money to buy any gas? But no, I worried about buying even more food to binge on. Crazy, right?!
To make matters even worse, I called my bank and begged them to reverse all or at least some of the charges. The bank customer service woman gave me a play-by-play on my purchases that made me overdrawn.
OK, fine.
Taco Bell $4.34
Popeyes $1.94
Exxon $3.24
Wow.
While this was incredibly embarrassing to hear, it was even more astonishing to learn about the most expensive fast food meals that I’ve ever had. That bean burrito, nachos, Dr. Pepper ended up costing me $39.34. Wow.
(She said she was able to take off one charge. I guess one $35 refund was better than nothing.)
I can say that this was probably one of my most embarrassing binge eating moments, especially when the customer service representative repeated my purchases back to me.
It was like she knew my secret and was giving me a big “F you”… I’m just sayin’
I can definitely relate to this. I find it amazing or actually pathetic how I could always come up with money to pay for my binges. I remember on numberous occasions pulling through the drive thru or stopping at a gas station and giving them $5 to $8 dollars in change to pay for the food that would turn into a self-sabatoging cycle. I would get all the food for example from taco bell: 2 gordita crunches, soft taco supreme, nacho supreme & bean burrito and lg pop and then eat it and realize I had maybe $2 dollars left in change and stop at a gas station and get some king size candy bars or something and then of course feel like crap and depressed and not worthy etc….and also get really depressed b/c I would be overdrawn and wouldn’t get paid for another week 1/2…but always seemed to find enough change so I could continue to stop at these places to binge. I am sure I could have easily spent in a week time at least $25-$50 in Change on junk food. When I should have been putting the change toward a bill so I could avoid a late fee.
Thanks for sharing Kristin!