How You Feel When Binge Eating
When you binge eat, you don’t feel good about yourself. This directly affects everything you do. You develop a lower self-esteem, you constantly worry about the way you look, you wonder if the opposite sex could be interested in you, etc.
Binge eating disorder completely changes the way you live your life. You begin to worry about things that you have never given a second glance to and you seem to start slowly losing who you are.
Suddenly, it doesn’t matter that you have a great personality. You don’t know how to appreciate that. Instead, you always compare yourself to someone else and want what they have. You aren’t happy within your own body at all.
I know someone that was hilarious before she started binge eating. She took pride in the fact that she could make people laugh. It was one of her best characteristics. Fast forward to her binge eating days: She started to make fun of herself and the weight she had gained from binge eating. She no longer appeared to be the fun-loving girl she once was. Instead, she made “fat” jokes about herself to others. While they might have laughed, this was only hurting her more and more on the inside.
Just think about what comments like that can do to a person’s self-esteem…
Another thing that comes to mind is the word “muffin top”. Have you heard it?
It’s when the fat from your stomach hangs over your pants, skirt, or shorts. It’s not really a new term, but since I dislike the word, I’ve never blogged about it.
Of course there are overweight people out there. Some have binge eating disorder and some don’t. How do you think this word makes them feel? Don’t you think they realize that they are overweight? Don’t you think that they know they should lose a couple of pounds when the time is right? Do we really need to label them with this term? I feel like no good comes out of it at all.
I would love to hear what words or situations have made you feel not so good about yourself.
Wow, this website has helped me so much to overcome my eating disorder. You’ve truly inspired me and showed me that I can overcome this. Also, I completely agree about the muffin top. It is so frustrating to hear how people half my size have a terrible “muffin top”. I think society’s obsession with the “perfect body” leads to eating disorders and I remember trying to diet when I was 8 years old. Looking at pictures I wasn’t even fat. Thank you so much for your help!
My husband has used the word “Dun-lap Syndrome” before, not about me…but it still offensive- meaning “Someone whos stomach dun-lapped over their pants.” I think it is just aweful.
I feel that my life is, and has always been, defined by food. I have been obese since junior high. I was always the heaviest person in my class. I always felt that I stood out and not in a good way. Not much has changed since I became an adult. I’m still surrounded by skinny, beautiful people. Its very lonely when you feel just the opposite. Bingeing on food that I love is a comfort and a punishment all at the same time.
Marcia, you have the story of my mother. (She is a binge eater too). Is this stuff genetic? My mom would only feed us healthy food growing up and tugged at my skin fearful I would get “fat” like her (she would actually say that)so I was never heavy in high school or even in the beginning part of the military (this is so bizaar) In the midst of a bad first marriage I starting binging like it was nobody’s buisness. I’ve been in binge and starve mode for 4 years. Needless to say, binging didn’t help anything, I wish I had never started…but we can’t look to the past anymore. We have to see that silver lining in the future. We can do it!